- Signed: Matthew Hartman
- Filed under random , rant , relationships .
Hey folks,
What a lazy day... I've had the entire day off of work and as such, I haven't felt like doing a whole lot. Yes, it is Friday and I realize that I should be cutting loose on a 20 gallon mug of Killians, but well, I just don't have the money (or motivation) to go out tonight. You see, I sit around and bitch about being single and this is what I'm doing about it. I can see the edge of hermitville just over the horizon! *grin
I did leave the apartment once today, but only to return a PS2 game to Blockbuster. With fundage running low, the last thing I need is a late charge on a stupid game. Upon stepping outside, I realized I've picked a good day to sit around and do absolutely nothing. What a dreary day... It's relatively warm today (as opposed to what it's been lately) but still cool; I'd guess in the mid to upper 30's or so. It's wet all over and just feels raw out there. Oh, and you know one thing that annoys me more than ever? Friggin' wet roads! Cars and trucks in front of you splashing dirty road water all over your windshield... gah! Nuthin' annoys me more than to use my windshield washer fluid every 2 minutes just so I can see. After I returned, I threw in some Friends (Season 5), fixed a couple sandwiches and lounged some more. Damn, am I pathetic. Friday night and I'm sitting here on my laptop writing to you.
I hate being an adult... I just wanna go back to when I was 17, living at home, and didn't have 8 different bills to pay! And a time when I was dating a sweet, beautiful girl named Christy. Have you ever wanted to get in contact with someone so bad and you have no way of knowing how? That's the way I feel. I wonder what she's doing with her life now... if she's married... has kids... if she's happy? In hindsite, I think at the time, I was in love with this woman but never realized it. And even though I did have strong feelings for her, I don't think I ever did truly tell her how I felt about her. Now, over 10 years later, I honestly regret not telling her. Because I really do think if things would have worked out between us, we'd still be together. I really have no idea why or how she would be reading this, but if she was, I'd want her to know that even though it's been years and years since I've last seen or talked to her, I do still think about her often. When you've been without a truly committed relationship for so long, you tend to reflect on past relationships, and that ONE, seems to bubble up to the surface most often.
Well, that's enough sappy commentary from me for tonight. Think I'll check some eMail, maybe chat some, then laze around some more!
Cheers -
What a lazy day... I've had the entire day off of work and as such, I haven't felt like doing a whole lot. Yes, it is Friday and I realize that I should be cutting loose on a 20 gallon mug of Killians, but well, I just don't have the money (or motivation) to go out tonight. You see, I sit around and bitch about being single and this is what I'm doing about it. I can see the edge of hermitville just over the horizon! *grin
I did leave the apartment once today, but only to return a PS2 game to Blockbuster. With fundage running low, the last thing I need is a late charge on a stupid game. Upon stepping outside, I realized I've picked a good day to sit around and do absolutely nothing. What a dreary day... It's relatively warm today (as opposed to what it's been lately) but still cool; I'd guess in the mid to upper 30's or so. It's wet all over and just feels raw out there. Oh, and you know one thing that annoys me more than ever? Friggin' wet roads! Cars and trucks in front of you splashing dirty road water all over your windshield... gah! Nuthin' annoys me more than to use my windshield washer fluid every 2 minutes just so I can see. After I returned, I threw in some Friends (Season 5), fixed a couple sandwiches and lounged some more. Damn, am I pathetic. Friday night and I'm sitting here on my laptop writing to you.
I hate being an adult... I just wanna go back to when I was 17, living at home, and didn't have 8 different bills to pay! And a time when I was dating a sweet, beautiful girl named Christy. Have you ever wanted to get in contact with someone so bad and you have no way of knowing how? That's the way I feel. I wonder what she's doing with her life now... if she's married... has kids... if she's happy? In hindsite, I think at the time, I was in love with this woman but never realized it. And even though I did have strong feelings for her, I don't think I ever did truly tell her how I felt about her. Now, over 10 years later, I honestly regret not telling her. Because I really do think if things would have worked out between us, we'd still be together. I really have no idea why or how she would be reading this, but if she was, I'd want her to know that even though it's been years and years since I've last seen or talked to her, I do still think about her often. When you've been without a truly committed relationship for so long, you tend to reflect on past relationships, and that ONE, seems to bubble up to the surface most often.
Well, that's enough sappy commentary from me for tonight. Think I'll check some eMail, maybe chat some, then laze around some more!
Cheers -
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