Has it really been since the beginning of September since I last reported here? Apparently so... Not much has happened between here and there, but let me post a few conundrums to you all. Maybe they will make you think twice - as it has me the past week or so...
First, why is it that when it comes to women hanging out together, they seem to gravitate toward each other - ignore the men they may be with and why on god's green Earth do they seem to either "act" like they are kissing each other or sticking out their tongues toward each other. WTF? I swear to god, do a search on a popular networking site. Be it MySpace.com, Facebook, Xanga, or whichever... I will guarantee you, you will find them (women - especially, between the ages of 22 and 30) partaking in this activity. Note to you women out there that may fall between these thresholds... Us guys (read: me!) find this as immature! I don't understand... Guys, if we were to partake in any kind of this activity we would be labeled as "gay," "faggots," for "f'in fairies...." Women, if you chose to live this kind of lifestyle, don't be surprised if you find yourselves on Match.com, Yahoo!, or Date.com with profiles asking why the "right" guy hasn't turned up. The lifestyle you chose will often define the type of person you end up with... Think about it for just one-half second!
Second, why are some people so god-damned close-minded? Let me elaborate for a second. While I am not the type of person to hang out in bars and drink all the time, why is it that most people seem to gravitate towards those that do? I know I am not the social-butterfly I used to be in college. But, hey guess what? I'm not in college anymore. I'm pushing 30, god-damnit... I feel there are much more important things in life than going out and drinking at every opportunity. Case in point, I'm out with a couple of friends from work just tonight, watching the Rockies/D'Backs game... One of my co-workers mentions a female friend of his and the other co-worker I'm out with refers to her as if he knows of her rather readily. Understand that the one mentioning the female friend has worked with us at Meridian for only a month or two... I construe this situation as, "I feel comfortable with this guy sitting across from me," but "I don't with the guy sitting next to me." All I want to say to this guy is "man, I feel like I'm 2 inches tall..." At the same time, however, I haven't really hung out with this guy enough to really know him. Is it wrong of me to think this guy is so god-damned close-minded to reject who I am and not invite me "out," as he has others?
These things bug me... I'm not sure why... Maybe I'm becoming so insecure with myself now that I'm going on six years without a real relationship with anyone. I mean, really... How many people can I say I'm "really" good friends with - someone I can confide in... You know, talk about things other than sports or work... Umm, one? And she packed up and moved to Pittsburgh in June... And yes, I miss her like you wouldn't believe! I try to bring up a different topic tonight, for instance, and for some reason I, practically, get shunned - and when I ask to hang out a little while longer after the game, I get thrown aside like a bum on the street. What the fuck is that about?
Is it selfish of me to feel that there IS someone out there that actually cares to want to be around me or more simply, someone that actually doesn't mind hanging out, talking about life, friends, family, goings-on, and such?
If it isn't, then I suppose I'll be one of those loners that drift through life, thinking the next best thing is right around the corner... when it actually never was to begin with.
First, why is it that when it comes to women hanging out together, they seem to gravitate toward each other - ignore the men they may be with and why on god's green Earth do they seem to either "act" like they are kissing each other or sticking out their tongues toward each other. WTF? I swear to god, do a search on a popular networking site. Be it MySpace.com, Facebook, Xanga, or whichever... I will guarantee you, you will find them (women - especially, between the ages of 22 and 30) partaking in this activity. Note to you women out there that may fall between these thresholds... Us guys (read: me!) find this as immature! I don't understand... Guys, if we were to partake in any kind of this activity we would be labeled as "gay," "faggots," for "f'in fairies...." Women, if you chose to live this kind of lifestyle, don't be surprised if you find yourselves on Match.com, Yahoo!, or Date.com with profiles asking why the "right" guy hasn't turned up. The lifestyle you chose will often define the type of person you end up with... Think about it for just one-half second!
Second, why are some people so god-damned close-minded? Let me elaborate for a second. While I am not the type of person to hang out in bars and drink all the time, why is it that most people seem to gravitate towards those that do? I know I am not the social-butterfly I used to be in college. But, hey guess what? I'm not in college anymore. I'm pushing 30, god-damnit... I feel there are much more important things in life than going out and drinking at every opportunity. Case in point, I'm out with a couple of friends from work just tonight, watching the Rockies/D'Backs game... One of my co-workers mentions a female friend of his and the other co-worker I'm out with refers to her as if he knows of her rather readily. Understand that the one mentioning the female friend has worked with us at Meridian for only a month or two... I construe this situation as, "I feel comfortable with this guy sitting across from me," but "I don't with the guy sitting next to me." All I want to say to this guy is "man, I feel like I'm 2 inches tall..." At the same time, however, I haven't really hung out with this guy enough to really know him. Is it wrong of me to think this guy is so god-damned close-minded to reject who I am and not invite me "out," as he has others?
These things bug me... I'm not sure why... Maybe I'm becoming so insecure with myself now that I'm going on six years without a real relationship with anyone. I mean, really... How many people can I say I'm "really" good friends with - someone I can confide in... You know, talk about things other than sports or work... Umm, one? And she packed up and moved to Pittsburgh in June... And yes, I miss her like you wouldn't believe! I try to bring up a different topic tonight, for instance, and for some reason I, practically, get shunned - and when I ask to hang out a little while longer after the game, I get thrown aside like a bum on the street. What the fuck is that about?
Is it selfish of me to feel that there IS someone out there that actually cares to want to be around me or more simply, someone that actually doesn't mind hanging out, talking about life, friends, family, goings-on, and such?
If it isn't, then I suppose I'll be one of those loners that drift through life, thinking the next best thing is right around the corner... when it actually never was to begin with.
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