The notions and gut feelings I felt all day yesterday hampered the excitement somewhat for my trip to Fargo yesterday morning. It's hard not to be super-excited for Thai food but deep down, that seemed to be the case.

No, unfortunately, I had other things on my mind and why I always let these things bother me so much, I really have no idea. Maybe it's the fact that I'm turning 30 in a couple of months... Or to put it more bluntly, that I can not get anywhere with women up here in North Dakota.

Yet again, have I been fooled by my opposite sex. Another conclusion I've come to... I have never understood women and I likely never will. They play too many games to get inside their heads and misconception and manipulation simply come second nature.

I had to ask this evening, after getting back in touch with this newest "person of interest," if she was involved with anyone. To which, I received the answer I was fearing... and one I don't even need to elaborate on here. I'm sure you all know the answer. All I want to understand is, why would you even leave a profile on eHarmony, if you're in a relationship. And even more, why would you communicate with someone on eHarmony if they have expressed an obvious interest in you?

For those of you who may not know, when meeting someone for the first time on eHarmony, you typically go through what they call "guided communication" with a new partner. It's eHarmony's unique way of getting two people close to one another. You ask each other questions, you answer each other's questions, you get to read what kind of person they can tolerate and the type they can't. It sounds rather simple, but it can be a drawn-out process sometimes...

So, you see, when you go through that much effort just to get to know a person, you would think a light would turn on in your head. You know, one that would flash, "Hey, this person is INTERESTED in you!"

Apparently, some people don't have any of these lights in their heads and mislead others that may just want to pursue something with you as if you are single and looking, as well. When you, in fact, are not at all! That's what I call down-right deception, right there...

So, what do I have to show for two, almost 3 weeks of trying to communicate with this person? Just another lady-friend that will probably only stay in touch, occasionally. I have enough of those, god-damnit.

Maybe this one will be somewhat different, but I really doubt it. Or maybe she will realize that someone close-by that will actually care for her and respect her is a lot better than dealing with someone that lives 200 miles away.

We'll see... I still feel burnt, either way...